Love or Hate - What is Life Giving Me?

"" Love or Hate - What is Life Giving Me?

A journey where life would make me count,

 A place where i had never been alone,

Every Happiness became so costly,

 I wonder god must have given me some discount.

Treasure to dig or a pursuit of happiness,

  Still a dilemma where my life is leading me.

My life is perfect, got love and success both,

 No matter what came my way, i enjoyed it to helm.

Distress with the emotions, never seen myself like that,

 I wonder do i have HEART or i'm just like that.

As far as the ocean is wide

through miles and miles of sea;

God always made me felt so strong,

With his Words - You will be someone special, 

a true miracle to me.

As high upon the mountain tops

as high as one can climb;

My pain will remain the same,

even i die or make the cliff look so high.

As many stars that twinkle , throughout the heavens above;

There will be a bright reminder,  what it means to love or hate of life.

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May be it can depict what happens to me, I am happy and cherishing my life but still uncertain with some of misleading truth of life.

• Where this journey will end up, so i can have some rest of life?
• Who will make me the happiest, when i don't even have a single thing to live upon?
• How will this life make up for the shortcomings of my life?

 Some day, I would sit alone and think upon the desert storm in my head that deserts all my thought and surrender me to the levy of luck that hinders and kills my pain and labour.

" Many Unanswered questions still needs to be checked tonight, may be i'm the lost one or still living up to win the debut fight. "